Brainwash

Why does everybody/everything in the world constantly try to change what I think? Why can't I learn on my own?

Our whole f**kin education system is based on brainwashing. We send kids to school at the age of 3, and those bastards start telling kids about God, how everthing is already written, nothing can be changed, you pay for your deeds. They do it in a polite, subtle manner by telling the kids fairy tales, where the monster is always killed by the prince in the end. Darn the fairy tales. Why don't we tell them the truth? Because we're egoistic, and we're afraid. Afraid that our own kids would revolt against us. So we brainwash them just like our own parents did. We force our religion, our thoughts, habits, all on them. They have the right to see, learn. The right to get an unbiased view of the reality.


At school, all of us are expected to sing the Hindi prayers, which are relevant only to Hindus. We have Christians, Muslims, and people from other religions coming to our school, all of them sing the same prayer. This is not uniformity, but coercion. I being an Atheist, am disgusted when I have to sing Hindu God praises.


Even the media, Hindi movies and music is brainwashing. We have articles in Delhi Times telling people what fashion is and what is 'in' these days. Who the f**k are you guys to tell me what to wear? I'll wear what I want to. You can rip your ass off screaming, I don't give a damn. I don't care what the other losers around me think. They're a part of your brainwash, you can shove them up your butthole. I don't care what SRK looks like, wears, or what he thinks.

The society is brainwashed, and has been brainwashed to brainwash others.

a) I have to be patriotic and love my country. But the truth is, I don't care. I hear people saying a lot of bad things to India, how it sucks, its full of poverty, corruption, unemployment, hatred, communism, but that doesn't hurt me. If a guy comes up to me and says, "Your country is a shithole, and your people are naked and bloody thieves", I say, " Was that supposed to be an insult? Oh sorry, I'm feeling ashamed. Now I'll cry after counting to 10".

b) You're supposed to work hard in life, and become an engineer/doctor/pilot/architect. You have to study your ass off, and if you can't do that, you have to start earning money as soon as you stop studying. then you have to marry, get settled, and show your parents their grandkids' face before they pass away. Bah. I want to become a pirate, or perhaps a smuggler. It gives me the thrills. I don't want to marry, never.

c) Your language should be good, you should respect all elders, touch their feet even if you haven't ever met them before, acting like a sycophant puppy. All elders are right, you are wrong. Experience is always greater than knowledge. You cannot challenge, or stop an elder even if he's shaving his ass off with a razor, just to ward off a fly.


This is a message to parents, teachers and so called 'elders' : You think you know what is good for your kids/juniors, because you have more experience. But the truth is that you too were brainwashed when you were young. So your experience also includes just the things that your parents allowed you to experience. What you think may have been right in case your child was born 20 years ago. Try to understand what he/she says. He's not always wrong, what he is saying is not always kiddish/inexperienced/foolish. Try to leave him alone, and give him space. Watch him grow, learn, and perform. Instilling in him what you think is good may not always be the best thing to do.

Confused..

I don't know what to do now.

I had a long talk with Sushubh yesterday, and talking to him made me want to commit suicide. Doesn't that dude know that he's not supposed to show 16 year olds the 'truth of life' (sounds cliché, na)??

A few things that I got to know -

1) First, I'm going to f**k myself, completely. I'll have to study hard to get into a good college/university, preferably IIT. When I do get admission in a university, I'm going to spend 4 more years, doing B.Tech or some other stupid degree. Then I'll have to study for the CAT exam, so that I can get admission in an IIM for MBA. Then 2 more years of hell follow. Finally, I will proudly say that I've finished my education.

2) I'll go out hunting for a job in a big corporation, or maybe it will be the other way round. The result will be me sitting in a cabin, fuckin my head off working for 9 hours at office, and then 3 more hours at home on a PDA/Laptop. No job security, but amazing perks. A boss constantly reminding you that there are 100s of guys outside, much better than you. You stop working, you're out in a flash. In short, I'm a slave.

3) I won't get time to spend with my family, friends. Then I suffer from lack of sleep, followed by hypertension, diabetes, and other diseases. I'm a fat, depressed guy, with money but no humor.

4) I go into rehabilitation, and realise how f**ked up my life is, and then commit suicide.


I know that most or all of this will happen to me. Still I continue on the same path. Bah. No choices really. I don't know anything beyond physics/chemistry.

Removed

I had to remove my earlier post because I mentioned in it the names of a few people, who have the power to put me into trouble or destroy my future. So I had to remove it. F**k hypocrisy. I hate the whole darned world and the stupid system. I hate each and every person about whom I mentioned in my previous post, but I can't write about it because they can get offended and f**k my life.

Here's what I want to say to those guys -




Never change and remain the f**kin bastards you are. I hope somebody comes along and bangs your shitty face on the wall. I have to bear you for another 5 months, but I don't mind. I'll pull myself through it.

3 reasons why I hate school

This post has been suitably edited keeping in mind the new Indian IT laws.

Going to school was supposed to be a fun, learning experience. It has turned out to be rather depressing for me, each day being a part of the punishment I have to suffer to make my career.

1) Ra***ka S***h - I don't know what her problem is. I can't understand who gave her the job. She's not qualified for being an English teacher. It seems that she isn't interested in teaching at all. She just wants results, and her teaching is constantly targeted towards the boards and the stupid marks. She is proud of the fact that our school's English results is far better than most other schools, and she probably thinks it is because of her. Somebody please tell her how much kids hate her.

     a) She has absolutely no sense of humour. Her jokes are pathetic, and she forces us to laugh by smiling for an extended period of time.

     b) She can't let go of XII D and the alumini. One thing that she constantly reminds us about is the lack of time, and the huge syllabus. And she's the only one who wastes time in our class. We haven't had a class yet where something about a guy who studied in our school 10 years ago wasn't discussed. I don't know how many zillions of times I've heard the line, "Those XII D kids are so naughty, I just love them. They are enjoying there life to the fullest."

     c) English periods used to be fun, till 10th class. We had an active discussion in the class, which sometimes turned into battles. But we didn't care about syllabus and peer pressure. We were learning. There was this satisfying, wholesome feeling, which made you feel that you've gained something. All that went away with Ra***ka S***h. Now it's all just a stupid race for getting more marks. Though I didn't score very good in my 10th class English paper, but it never bugged me, because I knew, I felt that I had grown, I had learnt.


2) An**a S**d - Chemistry has never been interesting, except for some of the really cool topics. But it was never torture. It was at least tolerable! I hate physical chemistry, just because An**a S**d teaches it. Whenever I sit with a Chem book in my hand, I first flip to a physical chapter, then I change my mind and open an Organic chapter, which is a thousand times more interesting, thanks to my Narayna teacher, Mr. K K Sharma (the best possible teacher of chemistry) and Harsh Sir. A mere glimpse of An**a S**d's face is enough to put you into depression. It seems as if she deliberately tries to make a topic as boring as possible. I remember discussing with somebody about An**a S**d cracking a joke. It would seem as if somebody wrote a long thesis on humour. Then she keeps bugging you, asking for those darned assignments.


3) Nam***a Alw***i - I don't know why she has a problem in digesting the fact that some guys are different from normal people. She's having a hard time with me, she just can't believe that I plainly refuse to do home assignments and complete practical files. I've told her a 1000 times that I find it useless to copy assignments from books or other guys and copy practicals from manuals. I hardly ever attend her class, and am still able to score much better than most of the class. She is still clueless as to how I'm able to do it. She too, wants me to complete my fuckin assignments. But I think she is finally realising, and starting to ignore me completely. She concentrates more on teaching in her monotonous, grey tone and putting the students to sleep.


A few people because of whom I'm still alive and gather the courage to go to school everyday -

1) Ankur Sethi
2) Chinmay Malaviya
3) Harsh Sir
4) The Computer Department