Having a tough time...

Great. Now my parents think I've gone insane, and they're trying to fix me up with a counsellor/psycologist. Just because I'm not studying/doing my school homework. They just can't understand why I have a problem in doing what most other guys are doing out there. I told them I go to school solely because I need 70% attendence for clearance. They think I'm in depression because I'm not performing at school.

I'm gaining weight day by day, and I've stopped jogging too. Junk food is on a high, and my face is crowded with pimples, most of which I've already burst. Now I look like a piece of shit.

To save myself from the counsellor, I've started completing my pending assignments, and for once started studying the CBSE syllabus for school. I have to get atleast a B1 in the upcoming half yearly exams.

I think I have lost my mind. I just wish I could rewind my life, and go back to the time when I was 4 years old, and just played around with other kids all day. I didn't even know what IIT-JEE was when I was 4.

Horror Flicks

Horror movies/shows have never affected others in the way they have affected me. I remember watching Aahat as a kid on Sony TV. Though it was really dumb and stupid, and most of the gore was easily identifiable as fake, I used to get really fucked up on the nights I saw an episode. I got horrifying nightmares, in which the theme of the episode applies to me i.e. zombies following me, me trapped on a deserted island with a pack of wolves or me with a half burnt-half liquid face. Watching an episode of Aahat today makes me laugh.

I have watched lots of horror movies, but none of them was as influential on me as Saw. Watching Saw completely changed the way I thought about the limitations of human thoughts.



The script is absolutely 'out of the world', the special effects and the gore make it a must-watch. Saw 2 and Saw 3, which continue the story of the first part, were also as horrifying as the first part. I watched all 3 movies in one go, and I couldn't sleep for 5 days, even with 2 night lamps on. 'Game over' and 'I'm gonna fuckin kill you' was all I could hear. I used to double check the bathroom before entering. The fear lasted about 2 weeks when I found out that the best way to ged rid of it is to watch the movies repeatedly until I got bored.

Today, while I was watching '28 Weeks Later', sequel to '28 Days Later', I felt the fear coming back.



Though it wasn't half as scary as Saw, I couldn't sleep in the noon, even though I was completely exhausted after school. I do feel OK now, but I am not going to forget the look on Robert Carlyle's face anywhere to soon.